Vision without action is a daydream. Action without a vision is a nightmare. 

                                                                - Japanese Proverb

I was in a company coffeetalk when our boss let out this wonderful proverb. Do proverbs make bosses boss? It doesn't matter I guess. Maybe bosses do their jobs in teaching stuff to their teams. Or they just wanna add bossing points to their records to be respected and be called boss. But this proverb struck most in my life both as an employee and as a start-up owner - my own boss.

The proverb is self-explanatory actually.

Having a vision is really nice. You know what you want. You know what you want to achieve for your company. You know when to mark success. However, if vision is just a vision and no action, then it just stays in the blueprint - no groundbreaking, no construction, no results. These are just dreams... daydreams.

But doing all the leg work, all the construction, all the innovation without a blueprint, without a plan, without a vision is just a nightmare. You'd end up doing revisions, corrections, and pretty much you'd turn out negative in profit.

I think what I am experiencing in my company is a mixture of both. Damn, I need help. Big time.

I need action in terms of accounting/financial needs of the company. Bookkeeping, BIR taxes, monthly deadlines, financial statements, records, withholding taxes, etc.... Damn, they need to add these in the curriculum of Engineering. hahaha.. I keep on saying I need accountants, I need somebody to manage and fix our financial needs. But where is the action? Not until a CPA-friend of mine listed to me all the requirements needed.... oh well, need to put my accounting system into top priority I guess. For now, i'll dream of having my personal accountant to manage everything for me... somebody who is willing to do it for 5000 monthly or less including leg work in paying and filing permits in BIR, SEC, CityHall, etc... (This is a job post in disguise)

For the nightmare, well, I'm experiencing that with my clients. In closing a deal, we go straight to development. No mapping of requirements, no approval of designs, no listing of final irrevocable specifications. How come? Well, i guess we are pressed for time and developers hate documentation. These documentations are left for me to do. Doing documentations for a total of 8 projects... No time, no time at all. So what do I get in return? Well, clients request this and that throughout the project development. This equates loss in both time and profit for us. Oh well... we need restructuring of the system. Or better yet, we need project managers to handle these for me. (again, a job post in disguise)

I guess for the meantime, I just have to put the proverb on top of my head for execution. I need to exercise having a vision then an action. God bless our company.

Dear Lord,

If you can't give me a partner, please make all my friends SINGLE.

AMEN.

Prayer with a touch of reality, a pinch of loneliness, and a dash of depression. Why is it depressing to be single? No good morning nor goodnight, sleep tight text messages. No specific point of contact (SPOC, a work-related term) to vent out how your day went or how your day will be like tomorrow. Some of you would say that friends do that and can be SPOCs as well. Question is, how different is it for a special someone to be these than for a friend to act as the ONE? Well, friends are friends and partners are partners, right? They are just two different entities. Though friends can be partners… Now, that’s ideal.

Sometimes going out can be a drag. You go out with a couple of friends who turn out to be paired up or coupled already. Odd man out in a manner of speaking. Sometimes, when you go out with friends who are indeed single, it can still be a drag. Why? Seeing couples pass you by or gorgeous individuals walk by your table, I start asking…why in hell are they together and I don’t have one? Or why in the hell can’t I be with that person?

But getting a partner should be easy especially if you have a line of prospects. But what makes choosing the right one difficult? I guess the fact that it’s not all emotions. There’s thinking involved.  It’s easy to fall in love if and only if you listen to your heart. You can say that you love the person because you get attention; you get the right care and love. All emotions… Yes, you’d probably last 2-3 months while you are still in the honeymoon stage. But relationship is far more than just the honeymoon. It’s all about making it work, making it last. Thus, thinking kicks in. You start thinking on how things should be, etc. You start thinking beyond the first 2-3 months that you’d be together. You start living in the future even before entering the relationship. You start thinking of the sacrifices you will eventually make and compromises you’d eventually give. Now tell me, is this making it work? Or is this making it just very complicated?

But sometimes when the superficial impact of the relationship is so strong, you tend to live in the present and worry about the future when you eventually get there. Now this is the ideal one. It’s like saying, as a usual Filipino would love to say, BAHALA NA! Easy to make a decision of taking a leap and praying to God that we can fly for if we can’t we’d fall like a rock and shatter once we hit rock bottom.

Why can’t relationships be as easy as learning how to count? Or choosing between Coke and Pepsi? Maybe because it involves another emotional and mental being. Either a clash of emotions or a clash of logics. Worst, a clash of both.

Depressions of singlehood. They keep on coming and going… Oftentimes, they come and STAY!

I guess for now, I’d say a little prayer.

Dear Lord,

There is nothing in this world that will happen to me, that You and I, TOGETHER, cannot handle.

                                                                                    AMEN.

"How should i go there, the longer one but lighter traffic or the shorter one but heavier traffic?"
"The one with more humps or with more stoplights?"
"Slippers or sneakers?"
"Daylight or 24/7?"
"....and a lot more"